Apakah hanya setahun dua tahun persiapan saya untuk beasiswa Fulbright? Lalu, apa saja yang sudah saya persiapkan berupa dokumen-dokumen sebelum mengirimkannya ke kantor AMINEF di Jakarta? Bagaimana pengalaman saya selama proses beasiswa Fulbright? Apa sajakah yang diterima pada saat pelaksaan beasiswa Fulbright? Selama di Amerika Serikat, apa sajakah yang telah saya pelajari? Kegiatan seperti apakah yang perlu kita jalani sebagai penerima beasiswa Fulbright?
Sebagai seorang remaja yang tumbuh kembang di kota Padang, saya selalu memiliki cita-cita besar. Sewaktu SMA, saya diprediksi oleh guru saya di Bimbel GAMA Padang bahwa nilai passing grade saya bisa mencapai masuk ke jurusan Hubungan Internasional di Universitas Padjajaran di Bandung. Namun, karena satu dan lain hal, saya akhirnya memilih jurusan Sastra Inggris di Universitas Andalas. Alhamdulillah, saya lulus diterima di universitas tersebut pada tahun 2003. Saya bersyukur bisa berkuliah di Universitas Andalas dan bisa menyelesaikan program studi tingkat sarjana dengan nilai IPK yang Sangat Memuaskan, berikut berbagai prestasi akademis tingkat nasional. Di saat kuliah di Universitas Andalas, saya menerima Bantuan Beasiswa Mahasiswa (selama dua semester di tahun akademik pertama), pernah menerima beasiswa Supersemar, dan beasiswa Peningkatan Prestasi Akademik (PPA) dari tahun ke dua kuliah hingga saya menyelesaikan kuliah di tahun 2007. Sewaktu kuliah di Universitas Andalas, ada keinginan untuk menjadi Dosen. Saya merasa senang dengan dosen-dosen yang ada di jurusan Sastra Inggris – Universitas Andalas. Saya pun terinspirasi untuk studi lanjut ke luar negeri. Waktu itu, saya berpikir bahwa di negara mana saja tidak apa-apa, yang penting luar negeri. Tak terbayang pada akhirnya saya studi lanjut ke Amerika Serikat. Negara yang katanya super power itu. Di sini cerita kehidupan saya selanjutnya menjadi berbeda, namun banyak pembelajaran serta pengalaman yang sangat berharga.
Keinginan untuk studi lanjut ke luar negeri untuk tingkat magister sebenarnya telah saya pupuk sejak studi di tingkat sarjana. Pada waktu kuliah di Universitas Andalas, saya merasa senang dan cocok dengan kampus tersebut. Akhirnya, saya berhasil meraih prestasi sebagai Mahasiswa Berprestasi Utama kategori Ilmu Pengetahuan Sosial (IPS) yang diseleksi oleh Rektor Universitas Andalas dan Dewan Penyantun Universitas Andalas di tahun 2006. Saya melamar berbagai beasiswa, termasuk AusAid atau ADS (Australian Development Scholarships), beasiswa Dikti, dan beasiswa Fulbright. Pada awalnya, saya kurang begitu yakin diterima di Amerika Serikat, malahan justru saya ingin ke Australia. Ibarat rezeki, sebagai orang Muslim, tentu saya meyakini bahwa rezeki ditentukan oleh Allah SWT. Ternyata, saya berjodoh dengan beasiswa Fulbright.
Dengan demikian, jawaban dari pertanyaan ini adalah bahwa ternyata beasiswa Fulbright adalah beasiswa yang sangat dihormati di negeri Paman Sam tersebut, dan bahkan di seluruh dunia mengenali nama beasiswa Fulbright. Banyak peraih Nobel yang ternyata adalah bagian dari keluarga besar Fulbright. Ada rasa bangga ketika saya dinyatakan lulus untuk menerima beasiswa Fulbright. Apakah hanya setahun dua tahun persiapan saya untuk beasiswa Fulbright? Lalu, apa saja yang sudah saya persiapkan berupa dokumen-dokumen sebelum mengirimkannya ke kantor AMINEF di Jakarta? Bagaimana pengalaman saya selama proses beasiswa Fulbright? Apa sajakah yang diterima pada saat pelaksaan beasiswa Fulbright? Selama di Amerika Serikat, apa sajakah yang telah saya pelajari? Kegiatan seperti apakah yang perlu kita jalani sebagai penerima beasiswa Fulbright? Pertanyaan-pertanyaan ini akan saya jawab melalui tiga video-video yang ada di bawah ini. Silakan disimak ya… Videonya berdurasi cukup lama, yaitu berkisar 1 jam, namun saya yakin akan sangat berguna bagi siapa saja yang juga ingin studi lanjut ke Amerika Serikat.
Berbagi Informasi dan Pengalaman
Part 1 berisi informasi mendasar tentang program beasiswa yang ditawarkan oleh AMINEF (American Indonesian Exchange Foundation).
Part 2 berisi informasi tentang bagaimana mengisi Fulbright Application Form, serta berbagi pengalaman berharga selama berada di USA dalam rangka studi lanjut tingkat magister.
Part 3 berisi informasi tentang apa-apa saja yang telah saya persiapkan di dalam proses seleksi beasiswa Fulbright, berikut beberapa contoh prestasi yang saya miliki untuk memberi nilai tambah ke aplikasi beasiswa saya.
Penutup
Beasiswa Fulbright pada dasarnya adalah beasiswa dari pemerintah Amerika Serikat. Beasiswa ini sangat dihormati di negeri tersebut. Negara-negara lainnya juga menghargai penerima beasiswa Fulbright ini. Peraih beasiswa Fulbright pada unsur tertentu perlu memiliki keunikan tersendiri, yang berdasarkan panitia seleksi, selain memenuhi persyaratan yang diminta, juga memiliki nilai tambah berupa kepemimpinan, seperti pengalaman organisasi, atau prestasi lainnya di luar studi formal, yang memberi nilai tambah sebagai seorang ilmuwan.
Bagi siapa saya yang ingin melamar beasiswa Fulbright, perlu diingat bahwa persyaratan perlu dipenuhi, sesuai dengan tingkatan studi yang akan dilamar, atau sesuai dengan program yang akan diikuti. Selain itu, disarankan harus ada nilai tambah yang kita maksudkan di dalam aplikasi lamaran beasiswa kita. Di tahap interview, perlu menjelaskan komponen beasiswa dengan baik serta lugas ke panitia seleksi.
Semoga lamaran beasiswa Anda ke Fulbright bisa sukses dan berhasil. Bila mau berdiskusi atau seandainya ada pertanyaan yang berkaitan dengan pengalaman saya di dalam menerima beasiswa Fulbright, silakan dituliskan pertanyaan atau poin diskusi di bagian komentar di bawah ini. Terima kasih. 🙂
Catatan: Untuk informasi lebih lanjut dan akurat tentang Beasiswa Fulbright, silakan kunjungi situs AMINEF, yang dapat diakses di link berikut ini: https://www.aminef.or.id/
The opening session of WISH Padang 2019 was filled out by the Rector of Univeritas Negeri Padang (UNP) who had been represented by the assistant of the third vice dean of Faculty of Mathematics and Natural Sciences of the university. Besides, the governor of West Sumatera province also attended to open the event formally.
On April 27, 2019, I was invited to be a speaker an event about scholarships in Indonesia. The event name was World Indonesia Festival, as the committee called it as WISH Padang 2019. I presented about Fulbright scholarship.
Mata Garuda Sumbar and LPDP Awardee also attended the event to share the views and tips as well as tricks on how to win and get LPDP scholarship. The chair of Indonesian Scholarship Network (ISN) from Jakarta also attended the event. Thus, it provided good values for students and visitors to know more about scholarship that is available in Indonesia or overseas and open for Indonesian students.
In the session of Inspiring Talk, the committee invited Prof. Saldi Isra and Prof. Mestika Zed. These two public figures increase the worthy of the event.
IELTS Coaching Clinic by IDP, IELTS Simulation by TIME Language Center, and Blajar.id also provided information on Tips and Trick of scholarship application.
Additionally, the event also has Stand and Expo that display various types of scholarship available for students who are interested to study overseas, such as Japan, Ireland, United Kingdom, USA, and Australia.
In short, the WISH Padang 2019 event was successful because many students and visitors came to the event. Almost 3000 students came to see the scholarship event. The event itself was sponsored by W-DANK LOKALATE, a product of Nutrifood in Indonesia.
Standing with Ibu Akhriani in W-DANK Nutrifood Stand (Kopi Gula Aren and Kopi Durian) So Tasty!! 🙂
Endorsement: Just to let you know, the taste of Kopi Gula Aren and Kopi Durian of W-DANK have added extra variant of taste of soft drinks in Indonesia. Ms. Akhiarni (Ani) gave me a glass of coffee with ice and it was rich of taste. I recommend drinking W-DANK Kopi Gula Aren and W-DANK Kopi Durian to enrich your taste on Indonesian traditional soft drinks but with modern packaging.
Tulisan ini adalah sebuah cerita. Tentang pengalaman. Tentang kepercayaan diri. Tentang sebuah kebanggaan pribadi yang dipersembahkan untuk bangsa dan tanah air tercita.
Kenangan Itu ~
Saat ini, tanggal 7 Maret 2019. Telah lama, memang. Masih terngiang suasana di ruangan itu, pada malam itu, saat aku akan tampil di sebuah Malam Internasional di kampus tempatku menuntut ilmu. Suasana begitu ramai, tapi formal, dan teratur. Kampus Southern Illinois University Edwardsville di Amerika Serikat.
Kulihat di depan, ada sebuah panggung. Tempat di mana aku akan menampilkan tari itu. Tari Rantak. Tari tradisional yang berasal dari dan dikenal luas di kalangan masyarakat Minangkabau. Entah apa yang membuatku begitu semangat untuk menampilkan tari ini. Ada semacam semangat. Gelora. Keberanian. Itu semua terasa olehku pada saat tampil di sana. Ah, ini telah 7 tahun lamanya.
Setiap kali kupandang dan kulihat video itu, aku bertanya dalam pikiran, “Hey, maukah kamu seperti itu lagi?” Jawabku, “Entahlah…” Meski waktu itu aku beranikan diri untuk belajar otodidak menampilkan tari Minang. Jujur, aku tak pernah belajar menari. Biasalah, dulu itu, bila kamu laki-laki dan belajar menari, kamu dipanggil banci. Ternyata, tidak sama sekali. Bullying yang kalah. Untuk apa aku dengarkan?
Mungkin bila boleh aku share, kok bisa aku naik ke panggung itu? Aku bukan penari khusus untuk acara internasional. Aku bukan anak muda yang mungkin tidak dipersiapkan untuk itu. Namun, kuakui, daya pendorong utama adalah ini: “Ma, Pa, lihat… San tampil di dunia! Membawa harum budaya Minangkabau! Dari sudut kecil di Indonesia!” Di hatiku, rasa itu begitu kuat dan kencang.
Dan sekarang, telah 7 tahun lamanya. Suasana yang masih terasa di hati dan terngiang di telinga. Lucunya, meski di hati ada rasa bangga ber-Minangkabau, ada juga yang menggeledek, “Iko di Minang ko!” Kutatap matanya, seperti ia tidak pernah mengenal orang lain saja. Di KTP, mungkin aku terlahir di Bandung, tepatnya Garut, Jawa Barat, namun ibuku adalah orang Minangkabau asli. Sungguh, sebuah kesemena-menaan bila tempat lahir dijadikan patokan untuk menilai sesama. Bila itu di Indonesia, maka ia adalah orang Indonesia. Hanya saja, cintakah ia ke Indonesia?
Bila diingat lagi, waktu terasa begitu singat kala itu. Terima kasih buat Ruth, Jake, Illona, Doddy, dan semua teman-teman internasional yang ada di SIUe. Ahmad, Nadeem, dan semuanya yang tak tersebutkan satu per satu. Thank you so much, guys! Your presence is so precious at those times.
Akankah aku tampil seperti di atas lagi? Aku tidak tahu, tapi mungkin aku ingin anak-anak muda lainnya yang menampilkan seni tari dan musik tradisional Indonesia di panggung dunia.
Ah, aku ini siapa. Ada beribu cerita yang hendak ingin kusampaikan. Yuk, merapat. Akan kuceritakan padamu arti dari Cinta yang Tak Biasa 🙂
Cinta yang menggelora, meski dalam wujudnya tak pernah ada, karena hanya mata hati yang bening, yang selalu memahaminya…
Tetap, apapun itu, aku masih cinta Indonesia.
Aku ingin membawa Indonesia ke mata dunia. Akankah itu terwujud? Wallahua’lam bi shawab. Hanya Tuhan yang Maha Esa yang lebih tahu. Aamiin.
Memiliki pengalaman studi di luar negeri adalah pengalaman berharga yang bisa diraih oleh seorang pemuda Indonesia. Bukan saja karena studi di luar negeri membutuhkan persiapan yang matang, studi di negara orang lain juga membutuhkan kebulatan tekad untuk mencapai apa yang dicita-citakan. Terkadang muncul sebuah pertanyaan, apakah yang akan dibawa oleh pemuda-pemudi Indonesia setelah kembali studi dari negara orang lain tersebut? Berikut ini saya akan memaparkan, mungkin tidak banyak, tentang tantangan dan kesempatan yang saya alami sekembali dari Amerika Serikat untuk mengikuti program pendidikan tingkat pasca-sarjana, S2 di Southern Illinois University Edwardsville.
Tantangan pertama yang dihadapi adalah pandangan pujian, sekaligus skeptis dari beberapa lulusan dalam negeri yang bekerja di beberapa perguruan tinggi di daerah. Artinya, pandangan pujian selalu datang dari insan cendekia yang memang bisa menghargai prestasi akademik orang lain berskala internasional dan pandangan skeptis berasal dari individu-individu yang merasa iri dengan kelebihan orang lain, dan sedapat mungkin untuk menjatuhkan si pemuda atau pemudi yang studi di luar negeri tersebut. Hal ini memang rasanya tidak masuk akal, namun tentu menjadi kendala yang sangat unik untuk pengembangan Indonesia ke depan.
Tantangan ke dua yang dihadapi adalah berkaitan dengan hal administratif. Tidak sedikit yang komplain mengenai penyetaraan ijazah, namun bagi saya pribadi itu baik, sepanjang hal administratif ini bertujuan untuk proses “mengakui” ijazah luar negeri tersebut. Jika saya perhatikan, sistem pendidikan luar negeri, lebih terfokus sehingga pola pendidikan tinggi di negara tersebut telah mementingkan proses belajar daripada hasil atau produk yang bisa dihasilkan. Selain penyetaraan ijazah, tantangan lainnya adalah mengenai jabatan akademik, fungsional, dan golongan. Tiga hal ini harus diurus sedemikian rupa terlebih dahulu, baru hak sebagai dosen diperoleh. Terkadang, urusan sertifikasi dosen pun belum tentu mengalami proses yang mulus, malah berliku-liku, alias data di forlap belum ter-update dan sistem online Indonesia yang masih belum se-update yang ada di negara-negara maju. Akibatnya, dosen yang benar-benar fokus kepada kegiatan akademis terkendala karena urusan administratif seperti ini.
Tantangan ke tiga berkaitan dengan tuntutan studi di luar negeri. Jika anda menamatkan pendidikan tingkat S2 di luar negeri, maka besar kemungkinan anda wajib studi di luar negeri untuk tingkat S3. Pertanyaannya adalah, studi di luar negeri tidak semudah studi di dalam negeri. Ada proses berliku dan ala kelok sembilan yang harus dihadapi untuk bisa studi di luar negeri. Apakah sama tantangan yang dihadapi ketika seseorang studi di universitas ternama di luar negeri dengan persyaratan yang mendunia, sementara di dalam negeri, persyaratan yang sama tidak diberikan pada level yang sama? Selain itu, proses untuk bisa diterima S3 pun tidak semudah yang dibayangkan. Jika sebuah Perguruan Tinggi memang berdedikasi untuk memajukan kualitas pendidikannya, maka PT tersebut tidak hanya mendorong dosennya untuk S3, tapi juga harus konsisten dalam hal membantu dosen tersebut menamatkan studinya tepat waktu dan dengan kualitas yang baik. Jika dosen tersebut dibiarkan saja sendiri menghadapi segala tantangan yang dihadapi di luar negeri, maka amat disayangkan jika banyak lulusan luar negeri dari sebuah PT ingin pindah dari PT tersebut karena apa yang mereka butuhkan tidak terdapat di sana.
Selain tantangan, kesempatan juga ada setelah studi di luar negeri. Kesempatan yang ada adalah pemenuhan publikasi di jurnal internasional. Oleh karena lulusan luar negeri memang di-design untuk memenuhi kebutuhan internasional, maka kesempatan publikasi jurnal internasional terbuka untuk mereka. Namun, di saat yang sama, administrasi di Indonesia pun kembali mengganggu, seperti, aspek linearitas, karena sistem penelitian di Indonesia belum lagi inter-study. Di Indonesia, linearitas dikenal untuk gelar S1, S2, dan S3 yang bidangnya sama (nah, ini berat lho, nggak gampang). Penelitian jadi lebih terfokus, itu bagus, hanya saja, sayangnya peneliti sering stuck dan bosan mengkaji yang sama terus-menerus. Jika bidangnya Teaching, maka penelitiannya tentang Teaching, bagaimana jika ia suatu saat punya ide cemerlang tentang Teknologi? Bisakah dikaitkan dengan Teaching?
Intinya, setelah studi di luar negeri, kami dihadapkan kepada kondisi di mana kami harus tetap tampil bagus, sementara lingkungan, kesempatan, administrasi, appresiasi, dan prosedur yang ada tidak terlalu mendukung kami untuk maju melangkah ke masa depan yang lebih baik. Saya pun tidak sedikit dan tidak sekali, mendengar akademisi berkata, “yang penting gelar, masalah luar negeri atau dalam negeri, itu terserah”.” Saya cuma prihatin. Jika begitu, untuk apa ya pemuda-pemudi Indonesia yang berkorban perasaan jauh dari keluarga, menantang maut dengan suhu yang minus, bersabar dengan pola makanan yang tidak sesuai selera kadang-kadang, setibanya di Indonesia, dianggap, “kamu lulusan luar negeri? trus, apa? mau bangga-banggain diri di sini? Ini Indonesia, bung! kalau nggak mau, balik aja gih ke negara di mana kamu studi dulu!” Saya pun semakin prihatin. Memang tidak semua lulusan luar negeri yang bagus, namun setidaknya tanyalah proses apa yang ia lalui sehingga bisa studi di negeri orang tersebut. Yang kami inginkan adalah kesempatan untuk mengembangkan Indonesia melalui ilmu yang kami miliki. Kami tidak butuh jabatan, tapi kami butuh kesempatan untuk berkembang demi Indonesia. Jika terkendala dengan keputusan sepihak yang seringkali terjadi di Indonesia, salahkah kami menyatakan bila memang brain drain itu terjadi?
Yang lebih menyedihkan adalah pernyataan ini: “kamu maunya yang gratisan, tentu iya. kami saja studi dalam negeri pakai uang sendiri!” Rasanya, ingin pergi saja ke negara orang tersebut dan mengabdi di sana. Tahukan biaya yang kami keluarkan ketika studi di luar negeri? Tidak akan terbeli dan sebanding dengan rekan-rekan yang studi di dalam negeri. Apa saja itu? Tanyalah kepada yang lulusan luar negeri.
Siapkah Indonesia dengan tuntutan zaman? Indonesia dituntut untuk meng-global, mengapa harus menutupi diri dengan kesempatan yang ada?
Post – Fulbright: Coming Home to Indonesia with Many Opportunities and Challenges
Stories of life had never been so similar between one particular person with another one. In this writing, I am about to share what I had in mind after I came back home to Indonesia from living in the United States of America for two consecutive academic years. Please read it as if you are in my side. Enjoy.
May 15, 2013.
Right in that cold night, I barely had a sleep. My host family let me stay in their house for a night. In the following morning, I would have an international flight to Indonesia. That day; the on campus apartment service seemed to have a strict system to allow international student to stay on campus overnight. My time to stay at the housing was only few days left before my departure to Indonesia. Therefore, I decided to ask for staying in my host family house, and luckily, they let me in. What a nice and friendly host family they were.
I took a flight from St. Louis International Airport in Missouri to O’Hare International Airport in Chicago. Both of these airports were located in Illinois State. I planned to go back home to Indonesia after spending times for about two consecutive academic years in the United States of America. From Chicago, my flight was continued to Hong Kong, China. Then, from Hong Kong, the flight was directed into Soekarno-Hatta International Airport in Jakarta, Indonesia. This flight took me for about two days (zone times) until I arrived safely in Indonesia. And, that was my second international trip I had after my first international flight was done on August 28, 2011. This flight was the last international experience I had after I finished my Master’s degree well at Southern Illinois University at Edwardsville, Illinois.
When I was sitting next to a window of where my flight seat was located in the United Airlines aircraft, I had some thoughts in my mind about how will I do when I return home? How life would it be after I experience those wonderful international experiences and those friendly atmosphere of friendship in the United States of America? I had millions of questions in my mind about the future of mine after I came back home. Would I still be the same? Would I have a better life and living condition? I sacrificed many of my times to study and read many books and journals, will the knowledge I have can help me in my work? Now, from there, I began to start thinking about what I had to do in Indonesia. Therefore, this writing seems to share all these things. Perhaps, for other Indonesian students who had studied in the United States with this scholarship, they might have different personal experiences that they faced when they return home from studying abroad. The point is, “Patience really helps when you get into so many obstacles once you return home.” What I write in this posting is intended to share some of the colourful ways of how I experience different things in Indonesia. All these things are peculiar at times but sometime, I felt so helpless when I know that I came back to where I belong, but to some degrees, only my family show care where nobody else will, or even just to try. It looks like a kind of hard thing to face, right? That is life anyway, in my view. Family is always the best people to have around us. They are always there in good and bad conditions.
Well, to begin this reflective writing, I start it by saying how wonderful my country is. From its nature, Indonesia is really remarkable. From Aceh to Papua, the nature is so wonderful and they may not be exploited for negative or harmful purposes. Unfortunately, this condition has been overused by irresponsible parties that seem to use the potential of natural resources to feed themselves as greedy parties. News that I heard about some corrupters made me feel really disappointed. I feel so discontented. I really wish that the news being spread about them were mistakes. From day one I arrived up to the night I typed this writing, I began to think of how is it possible for Indonesia up to this point with so many obstacles above? I began to think of how and why such people who are so greedy for themselves could sit in that political position that defines the lives of so many people? Well, that is, for my country. Politics seems to be always the nice thing to debate, even though practical solutions are still under way. I watched television and soon, I felt so exhausted. By the way, I know that you can read news about all these things. Frankly speaking, it is too big to be discussed in this writing about politics so I now focus on what opportunities and challenges I seem to face when I am back home. Maybe you guys, if you are the same with me, you would likely experience different things. Therefore, please do bear with me.
Beginning with the opportunities, I have seen many good things to consider for the future. Apparently, my job as an English lecturer seems to be very open for new opportunities. I began to have lots of channels where I can expand the use of my skills and ability in English. I begin to think of using English as a language of mine, and as a language where I can communicate with people from around the world. I now feel like being a part of this whole global contextual communication atmosphere. Ever since I arrived in Indonesia, I can see a lot of things that I can do to help people around me, even though the helps I could do are far away from the centre of attention that journalism or reporters have in their works. I mostly help and urge my students to reach their better future. This help is what I can do because the effect is given directly to them. They often asked me questions about how it feels to be in the United States of America, how it looks like to be there in the snow, and what did I eat with all those American foods. On top of that, I used to get questions like how it felt to be in a place where you are very different from other people in terms of faith, race, or personal background. These questions are only few of the many questions I got after I returned home. Mostly, I felt the greatest happiness is when I met my students. The culture of “respecting the teacher” here in Indonesia helped me to adapt sooner that I thought I would. Nonetheless, yes, reverse culture shock is very saddening, but often times, such culture shock is not culture shock as the theory said, but it was actually the feeling of knowing what’s wrong with your culture and how you see it from the way people from other cultures would see it. Different colours and shapes are the best analogy for this aspect. I began to see clearly what is wrong with the culture of mine and it was sort of problem of mentality. The problem, somehow, is not in the culture but to the people who live with that culture. At the first time I arrived in the United States and came home to Indonesia two years after that, I felt so many challenges. Then, after several months, I just get used to them. As long as everyone can live together side by side regardless their differences, everything would be tolerable I supposed, except for bad habits that harm lives of other people. The story will be so different when the challenges come in ways that seem to be rationally acceptable to happen.
Unlike opportunities, challenges come to me in the form of swung arrows. In general, the challenges might always come from the external situation of mine. Regulations, policies, and rules seem to block creativity of so many people-with-focus. For instance, I cannot teach subjects related to English literature simply because of the curriculum. I used to think that all candidates of English teachers must know the essence of English literature before they begin teaching in the classrooms. Reading English literature help them shape their thinking process, at least to a degree where they can respect how people might think about one thing through different inclinations, ways, or conclusions, especially knowing how words will bring different meanings in different context linguistically. In linguistics, language is being studied in the form of theories, but in literature, language becomes alive. It must be used in almost all cases. Meanwhile, knowing teaching method is like knowing equipment for a work, while in fact, teaching itself must be dynamics. It should not have to be rigid and stiff. Facing the over-jealousy from people who seem to feel uneasy toward others’ happiness who came back from abroad and knowing the real thing of what some people do to block your ways out to be better in your life after you came are things that, today, seem to be common happening here in this country. Brown nosing almost occurs among people who were born from rich family. Smart youths usually could go to school, but when they searched for jobs, they had to face nepotism and collusion. The fact is that only those who know the boss that can be hired. Brilliant students end up working in somewhere else, in a place that they seem to be unfit, not because they cannot do the work, but more because the external circumstances do not support them to achieve greater impacts for their career, life, or personal achievements. As a result, their education became so useless. This point is very saddening to me. Some productive youths who had talent in a certain field and they graduated excellently from school are being left out only because their parents are poor or they were born from unprivileged community. Meanwhile, youths who seemed to have lack of skills but they had their parents as the lucky guardians can get work they like due to that “channelling” system. Somehow, this nuance is what happened with me and with all other youths who were raised in a poor family. We did all we had to get the better future, although the sacrifice we did is what makes us look still poor. How can we have a great saving while income and spending are completely imbalance? They graduated from school, had skilful computer literacy, and possessed good command of using a foreign language, and ended up from studying with brilliant scores and achievements, but they faced with tormented reality that said, “Going to school is not for you. Why should you be so diligent in studying if at the end, you will be nobody? Why should you have to study far away to another country if what we need here is only the title?” After I searched for the reasons of this sticky mind-set; I began to see that the system created them in that situation. What happened afterwards is that wrong person in a wrong place. The impact is chaos. Bad personality can happen to sit in a strategic position to make decision. All the youths want to be is to be the civil servants because all facilities from the government had been made for you and you also worked as the decision makers. To be honest, I heard this sentence once in my life. Badly enough, as I notice; those folks who sit in that nice position seem to have no clue to see the points outside their comfort seat. They approach people who can approach them—too political at times. My voice at this point is geared toward the nation, not just one particular place. And, overall, based on what is written in mass media all over Indonesia, my voice is true. However, of course, there are still many good things out there that seem to be forgotten to be spoken out loud to the world in many Indonesian newspapers.
Now, getting back to the arrows, I did my best to avoid them. If one arrow hit me, then the best thing I could do is to recover from that arrow—to stand again and fight! Usually, the people who attack you for their own personal reasons are usually, losers. What they have in mind is always you. You are lucky to have one—I said to myself. Just one thing for sure, I never want to be that person for others. To be hurt is really hurt, but to hurt others, never. If it hurts for me, then why would I have to make people feel the same hurt as I do?
Another peculiar thing I noticed is the attitude of over-using nice person for work by saying the word “help.” It is fine to ask for helps, but of course, we can measure to what degree our request of help can be done or even be relevant with the person we talk to. If the person that we ask for help said that he or she cannot help us because he or she has tons of tasks to do, then it would be so unwise for us to judge that person to be unhelpful. When the limit comes, of course, we need to be a bit more considerate to people around us. I would love to help; however, I help when I can. My feeling feels so sad when helping some fellows ends up with nothing, even just saying the words, “thank you.” At this condition, some people would say, you need to be “sincere.” Basically, this situation is about avoiding the attitude of making use of other people without any good attitude as the reply. We never love a person, who never loves us, don’t we?
Actually, there are many things I can share about the challenges and opportunities after I come back home. The point is, “The future lies in our hand.” That is true. However, living in a place where corruption happens like a group of ants trying to hunt their foods, then the consequences are that we cannot move forward. We stay in the same position all the times. If you decide to move and do something, there are always there, some parties who feel so embarrassed with what you achieve. Some of them really want to brag you down for the same level as theirs. They want you to be like them. Making everything looks the same or trying to equalize all aspects of life is completely ruining many colours of life. Only the winners who could make more winners and losers are friends for losers. After all of my international experiences in the United States, I had seen clearly that to win someone does not mean you lose yourself. To make someone a winner means you are higher than the winner. I always envy people who help other people to the best they can. To see a sign of a winner is from the word, “respect.” What is the point of attacking people with our words and actions when we mean them so much with hatred and jealousy, especially with lack of mutual understanding? Is that the purpose of life? I literally think that life is way too far from this narrow thought. Or, do you?
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“Telling the truth of what you really feels needs a strong courage because you feel like standing bare and naked in front of the eyes of so many people who will throw you with stones and stones of judgmental sentences after reading or listening what you just said, especially when you are under pressure not to tell it. However, once you said the truth, you bring lights to people” – Syayid Sandi Sukandi, 2014.
Note: This writing is purely personal. If you feel a bit uneasy with the content, please type your comment below. I would love to discuss with you open-mindedly. Thank you.
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